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I haven't told anyone on DA what my problems were, and here, I would say it. I've been diagnosed with split personality a few months back, after my condition made a turn for the worse, and I had to go through intense treatment to stabilize my own condition. At that time, I didn't even know who I am and what I am doing, it was absolutely terrifying for me, and my parents tried their best to help me alongside with this, cutting back on their travelling and work. I was getting so paranoid that I severed all contacts with my friends, staying only on the internet and in my own house. That means I couldn't take any photographs, and hence the lack of activity on deviantart. I nearly resorted to self-harm, but my opinions on the topic from before my breakdown kept me conscious and sane enough to not do so.

After weeks and weeks of treatment, I would say that the sane girl is back, and I am controlling my personality and emotions well enough. Whenever I'm agitated or something triggers my memories, I would just fall back into being abnormally quiet instead of raging a storm or something worse. My friends (both in real life and on the web), my family, and my doctors, thank you so much

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dEVIANTS Feature

Too long without a feature, so I've got to make up for it. Some of the greatest works that I've spotted this month, they're amazing. Some dEVIANTS that I want to feature would be:

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Some of her amazing works are:

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"Her works fascinate me because the colors are vibrant and the concepts are simple, yet interesting. The focus of every work is clear and in-your-face, very brilliant!"

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Some of her amazing works are:

Piranha Prince by reginade Crocodile Princess col by reginade Vampire Loves Bunny by reginade

"Her works are so mesmerizing, they have amazing details and I love both of her styles. The colors are well chosen and the works creates powerful impacts on the viewers. I really love all her works."

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Some of her amazing works are:

Snarry - cloak by woshibbdou hp-spank by woshibbdou AU_Cedric + Harry by woshibbdou

"Of course, because they are about Harry Potter, so I was hooked. Her drawings are amazing and it never fails to amaze me how the characters come to life under her fingers. Lovely!"

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For some reason, these three dEVIANTS are all females :) Purely unintentional, of course, their works just capture me so!

XOXO
Stella

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This is the first time that I've visited DA in two weeks' time, and I felt so overwhelmed. It's as though I've stepped out of a very long dream, stepped away from the thick haze that has surrounded me for the past two months. God, this sounds like some emo-i'm-screwed-up-more-than-you-think kind of talk, but I assure you, it isn't. I just needed to clear my head over some things, because trust me, the end of this year is going hard on me. I said goodbye to 1 dear friend, 2 dear cousins, and my dear class full of my sisters.

It doesn't make sense that time has passed so fast, and I reflected. I reflected on how I spent every day of the past two years and I couldn't remember. For that stupid reason, I lost myself.

But I'm back, without coming up with the conclusion that I have left to search for. Now, I realized that I don't need it in the first place, so right now, I want to make up for lost time and memories.

Yesterday I visited the doctor who reprimanded me for crying too much. And I had, in a short span of 4 days. Small little things that reminded me of time spent with my class, with that 1 friend, with those 2 dear cousins just urged those waterworks to come back with full force.

But now, I think I can see the rainbow...

And I want to set out towards it...

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I am really a silly girl, always thinking about things that I shouldn't be thinking about. The year-end-examinations are almost over, in fact, less than 24 hours more and I'll be free. Free from what? Examinations? I'm pretty sure that's not it. We still have more examinations to come, be it in school, or after joining a workforce, or in life, until we die. No, we're not free, we never will be.

My stopwatch stopped exactly 29 minutes ago, and it had been recording the duration of time I spent staring at an entirely blank piece of paper. As white as pure nothingness, as white as white can ever be. Or perhaps, it's just an ordinary white piece of paper that is only called WHITE paper because it is a mere name given to that one color. And yet color is a given name too...

Everything in this world is created, or rather, named by us. We give everything names according to our ways of "thinking", our ways of "logical resoning", our ways of "scientific definition" and everything else that we, the human, came up with...

We turned our own lives complicated, for the better, for improvement, but do we need to improve in the first place? Would we actually die if we live in a world without televisions? In a world where everyone, or almost everyone, fears death and seeks every single way possible to evade death?

I think, therefore I am...
Losing faith?

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All my features would be great artworks by deviants out there, so please take a look at their artworks and their galleries. There will be DDs, popular artworks, and also beautiful works that you might have missed!

ENJOY~~


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